mm.

i never understand why I give so much love and care into friends that don't give the same love and care i give them. then i get irritated because every so often it shows so i start to build a wall to separate myself from them. but then some way i take it down and they end up disappointing me again. smh (shake my head). its sad because its a sign of ignorance on my behalf to keep letting that happen.

The No.1 Ladies Detective Agency

AHHH i lovve this shooow!!!! peep it out when ever u get a chance on HBO or On Demand. my favorite singer is now a wonderful ACTRESS :D yes indeed im talking about my baby mamma Jill Scott. Listen to her music to. its good for ya soul ;)

Smoke Song

Party Life - Jay-Z

I love this song. Though I do not smoke, if I did I would smoke to this (:

complete me

try to find my heart


through my love tree filled with thorns


identify the beauty i keep to myself waiting for you to fill in the blank words in my sentence ... I need you to complete my existence.

Finally!!

i finally fount a word that i think matches me.

Supernatural : of a manifestation or event attributed to some force beyond scientific understanding or the laws of nature it alo means unnaturally or extraordinarily great.

(:

Relax Kitty Kitty

lol i like this video... cats are so paranoid, they need to kickback and relax, take a few "chill pills" (:

ouline.

i love this pick of me so much for some reason.
it shows my black outline not my full color, nor what im wearing, this picture makes me wonder about a lot of things, it forces me to use my imagination.

listen to this ish.

haha smh. i got good ears (: , no one cannot say these do not favor each other

Eleanor Rigby/Julia [Transition] - The Beatles

Forget about Dre - Dr.Dre & Emienem-

religion

so, today i was thinking about religion. MMMMM. what a controversial topic right? well i decided to talk to my wise grandparents about religion and they pretty much was with me. i don't ... understand nor believe a few things. like the Adam and Eve story ... its just not believable to me I believe in Jesus and God though so i cannot say im not a Christian but i just do not read the bible. I mean a lot of ppl back in the day took out things in the bible so how am i suppose to know what is real and not... but im looking at some other religions man...

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sooo.... i noticed that this "love thing" is really complicated lol.
its sad man.... like .. i don't ask for it to come my way but it does
history some sort really repeats itself. im in love with my best friend. and he's in love with me. that's the first wrong thing smh. were fighting for noooo reason. im keeping my cool of course cause i really love this cat he brings more beauty to my beautiful life. but were steady going back and fourth on if we should or shouldn't go out!! ah its lowkey stressing because it causes arguments. .. its weird though cause i only see myself with him and he only sees himself with me but were still fighting for what?.

Kickback "Old School"

Had a koo time at Geena kickback yesterday, seen my friends from middle school which was cool. it made me think about a lot of things about myself, for some reason almost every time im with my "old" friends i think about new things, like if im not getting along with one of my friends (noticeable or secretly) i always look at the situation in a different way and POW just like that our friendship is back together.... hopefully you understand what im saying. lol but yea i love my friends but their would always be a mystery on if they truly love me. mmm.

hard times

Hard Times & Jurassic 5 - The Pharcyde

this song always makes me happy since the first time i heard it (a few years ago)

Mos Def Calls Out..

haha this nigga Mos Def needs to sit his ASS down! tryna battle Jay- Z and Kanye West also Lil Wayne but Lil Wayne is understandable/beatable but JAY-Z AND KANYE WEST! hahaha if he losses to both of them i would not be surprised, then he started talking about ANDRE 3000!! haha hopefully he was spazzing out for a few minutes. check the vid out!



(fast forward it to 3min.)

stalker pic.

mann, i kinda feel bad for taking this picture of this stranger. i actually feel like a stalker :x but her hat was TOO DOPE!

i will one day cop this!

man. my friend .. , really made me wanna get a medallion really bad!. i know where to get one too but i don't have 12 dollars! :(

I FONT IT!!! :D

MAAAN i fount this comic on the most weird ass day (thursday) me and my friend Mark went on this "date" to subway and then we were walking on melrose so i simply decided to go to all these stores that interest me (so i can annoy Mark) and that's when i stumbled upon this comic store I WAS SOOO SURPRISED WHEN I SEEN THE COMIC STARRING PRESIDENT OBAMA IN IT RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE STORE!! man. that was a good day. AND ITS A GREAT COMIC! try to finnnd ittt!!!

the flower on the moon, peep this ouut!

http://cosmiclog.msnbc.msn.com/archive/2009/03/26/1867485.aspx

he is apart of me.

maaan my grandfather had way style. haha he's smooth still till this day. I love this man, without him i will be a different person and i know that for a fact. he's my wise grandfather, crazy but wise and a jazz fanatic fan. when you have a intellectual conversation with me your also talking to him, he's apart of me mentally.

NEW THINGS!

SOOO. I am now a vegetarian. NO MORE MEAT!, the only reason i am becoming a vegetarian is because im searching for a new life style that i feel will best suit me. AND its horrible what they do to the animals and what they put in them like hormones and steroids etc. and i eat that, puke!, no more of that. I will not contribute to the madness that hid underneath the beauty especially if im aware of whats going on behind closed doors, i feel that's ignorant of me to do. and yes i did mess up ONCE during my transition, but i felt wrong eating it so i took some meat out.

dang.

. . .

history truly repeats its self & im scared ,
my history isn't that good ,
because of the selfish choices i made
i betrayed those who truly care
about
my feelings and ambitions
so i now wait for the long days i'll be in pain
i deserve the heart ache.