life in a day.

man.., soo this week was just a stressful week. I mean from school, to my parents on my head bout some dumb shit, wanting love, some personal shit, just... everything wasnt good at all, i had an emotional breakdown, i just wanted to be gone disappear out of people lives by ending mines. But umm friday (yesterday) it worsen, my mom and step father was getting on my head bout some damn key that i lost and i was stressed out cause i had 4 tests that day and i just walked out the house crying, sad on the bus listening to my music people asking if im ok and shit (Started to get annoying) then i went to cafe aroma to meet ashton and he was all concerned and i finally just kinda broke down crying at the gas station so we were walking to school and i was whatever then around mm... 4th period in geometry class i started feeling better cause something came randomly, so me and ashton is at the school library happy and stuff so my day started to look better, then my tests weren't that hard except SPANISH! that dum shit smh i so cheated lol, so by this time (12:30 or so) im pretty straight, not crying and im some sort laughing and im just like damn if i don't find this damn key my parents are gonna be mad and i don't feel like hearing there shit so i went to the dean office and asked if someone turned in a key and with a leather holder and she said yea! so me and ashton are happy and some sort suprised and then she was like i might have thrown it out... so in my head im like wtf, you threw out somebody key like wtf .... it was sus to me, so im like excited and lowkey mad so anyways 15 minutes in the office was some sort a waste of time, and me and ashton went to uhh tomato pie got a slice of pizza and went to his dad car, he was kinda mad cause i didn't call him and tell him we were at the dean and stuff (that was my bad) so the he dropped me off and Ronald was sleep (my step dad) so im lowkey tryna tip toe to my room so he won't wake up and i was like thats dumb cause he lives with us so its pointless, soooo pretty much i said i couldn't find the key and gave me a lecture and that was that (Wasn't as bad as i thought it was gonna be) then my grandfather wanted me to come up to his home which i did and he was like so guess where were going tonight and i was like where and he was like to go see your favorite pianist and i was like noooo AHMAD JAMAL! and he was like yea so i got suppa excited and went downstairs charged my camera and got dress met him in person! omg my face was red lol i was able to feel the blood in my cheeks lol it was amazing he is amazing man. and yea that was my day (yesterday)

!!!AHHHHH!!!!

OMFG! Q-TIP ALBUM CAME OUT TODAY AND I DON'T HAVE IT!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!! SHOOT ME!

GRRRR!

sigh can someone send me this song if they have it.
i forgot all about it , i use to listen to it all the time last year then idk what happened. lol .

bummer man.

sooooo i have this acid shit in my stomach and it might get super serious and eat my stomach lining .... then my kidney etc etc..... and i don't know how to prevent it.

McDonalds NEEDS TO DIE!

McDonalds!!!! in New York.
wow, McDonalds is FUCKING GROSS! like what the Fucking Fuck
shit taste nasty GESH.

mystery art/postings

i fount another one!
does anyone know who post them up!, i wanna help.
but meanwhile, STOP and remember peace should always be in your consciousness and a better sight of life you will seek.

'its' not so perspicuous anymore.

we are disconnecting... each day, each second, each moment we grow further and further apart i am losing my mind, my thoughts, my love is fading loneliness is rapidly becoming transparent, im running away can some one catch me? im dying ... can someone help me? i am a rose with nectar dripping out of my petal can the right bee for my nectar sting me? im changing physically, mentally, continuously and it seems like no one is there with me, their either ahead of me or behind me, but not beside me... i refuse to say no one is out there for me... but as each day, each second, each moment of this time goes by im a zombie; Asha the dead walking human being.

yellow jacket

i want a bee to land on my flower
some day...

But i took this picture in New Jersey there's a lot of bees out there most of my cousins were chicken nuts but obviously i wasn't. I think bees are little insects with a lot of character maybe paranoid a bit.

It seems like the bee life is cool all they have to do is fly around and have sex with flowers! have 2sums at that! like woah what a life right?, but there paranoid when it comes to humans! there the first to attack you and when they do they die! then the word gets around the bee hive that the pimp bee died because of a human and now bees are the first to attack people trying to save themselves then they die, and the word is going to keep going around and in a minute its simply going to be a bee and human war.

woop woop

school started yesterday. lol, more 'important' classes so more learning.
lalala, i have a doctor appointment today so i won't be at school till like 11 something :/ which is a bummer because its the 2nd day of school but whatevea.

MAN!

WHY is N.E.R.D PERFORMING tomorrow in NEW YORK not in L.A ... NEW YORK smh i don't think i'll ever see them perform :/.

AND I CAN SING HIIIIGGGHHHH-IIIIHHHHH

lmao!!!! funny shiznits! <- (shit)

Original song from Guns N' Roses

Its Amazing

yay it seems like i might be going back to New York with my grandfather :)
I'm traveling so much, I'm so bless, I'm going to Florida and New York in December close to Christmas, then my God Grandma proposed to me and my cousin(s)this traveling program called Rustic Pathways and me and my cousin(s) are able to go to any country that's provided for us to go to, we can go to China or India or AFRICA!!! and I'm able to go twice because they probably don't wanna go to Africa and I do so that's happening during my 1st month of my 2010 summer, also I'm going to Europe and I'll be visiting London, Paris, Rome, and Greece which is happening in August 2010. SO I'm going to be a traveling lady and I'm SUPER excited, i can't wait to see all the different tribes and cultures and take pictures and meet different people :).

:)

Stolen Moments - Oliver Nelson

ASHA all capitals, no trick spelling.

The Awakening

Ahmad Jamal man, this is one of my favorite albums by him. I would really love to see him in concert!, he's my favorite pianist sigh one of his best song is "I Love Music" which is on the Awakening, peep it out peep it out.

New York :)

this is going to be my new home! i love it out there omg, there's so many different people all smashed together doing their own thing, the vibe is great man.. i love it.

THERE BACK!

WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK!
LMAO!
WHY???

smh i already miss him.
ain't that some shit., but oh well i guess. ....

Asha . . . . and that's it. forever.
so fuck everyone else.

the hell!

sigh.. i hate when i feel bad for telling the truth.
but i shouldn't like what the hell.
why would u not want to hear something that's true... and then when the opportunity comes to make it true u don't wanna make it true!.
its really irritating.
and then i feel bad cause i know i made u mad.
smh, bull shit BRO.