blah blah blah.
tomorrow is friday!!!!!:)

False Abstract Love.

flower=harmless
so i decided to trust it
love it
lust for it
drink its nectar
we became close
lovers bound together..never thought of separating
then things changed
the whether became gloomy
u grew
your new beautiful colors attracted me
your new love hit me in so many ways
abstract is what i would call u
you would blindly transfer energy in my soul making me lift higher than space so now i was in someone else world with no passport
love ... is what you filled my empty class with
but slowly my life started vibrating, everything started changing once you unnoticeably decided to step out my door
i tried to touch you ..but your petals... grew thorns.

curse NERD GAME!

smh lol i got hooked on N*E*R*D gammeee, my eyes burn and shit lol. i made a cool beat though.

check it izout.(link is bellow this)
http://www.n-e-r-d.com/game/game.html?p=2

Alley Party (Not Edit)

soo the crossroad alley party was pretty cool. IT WAS FREE FOOOD. lol it was yummy, i had like 5 pieces of sushi, but besides that it was pretty cool my cousins Amara and Jerzey seen a few of there old friends and me Chris,Jovanna&Glenn (that's the picture of those 2 hoe boes above me) and another Chris was just chilling doing arts&crafts. There were cool rock bands they were pretty delightful in my ears and they played all the jazz i listened to so it was joyful having a small musical in my mind lol. and CHEA CHEA thats it. oh then hours after the Alley Party, we went to Pink Tacos to go munch munch on some mexicana food.

“I am not a Marxist.”
-Karl Marx

"shrimp dick, bb balls"
-Asian Chick on Crank 2

grr!

i don't know where to start!, i have so much i want to post!!!! and each day i don't post something more stuff builds on top!

YES MY INTERNET IS WORKING!!!1

yep yep.

mann, so i have like sooo many pictures!, but this picture uploading shit wants to be whack!, so that's that and yea i've been on my poetry a looot lately, lots of stuff has been happening rapidly from 'emotions' to different thoughts about various things like 'friendship',family, death, and heaven, and myself, and 'reality' and people just in general so that's that...., i'll probably post one poem tonight don't know, sooo... yea.., ADIOS!<- HA SPANISH!

.......my cousin rap (it took an hour to write)

Jerzey Dean
9-27-09
My Flow
INTRO: 1,2,3 into the 4 J-Dizzle da Shizzle and sophie V. are at ya door

So Im watching South Park and I have a sword
Its very very dark and Im really bored

Ralph don't believe I'm good at writing flows
i was like YO RALPH I thought you were my bro

NEW SUBJECT! Everyone knows who I like right?! And you also know who Ill be with tonight

Im kickin my flow like there's no tomorrow
And hell nah! I don't feel any sorrow

Well now Im done rapping and i know youre happy SHEASH
but guess what? You'll never be an OG like me!

J-DIZZLE IN
DA
HIZZLE
MI
NIZZLE!

...WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK IS THAT SHIT! LMAO, SHE THINKS SHE'S THE NEXT KANYE...., jump off a bridge, immediately. love you jay :) stupid hoe boe sucking on my toe.

life in a day.

man.., soo this week was just a stressful week. I mean from school, to my parents on my head bout some dumb shit, wanting love, some personal shit, just... everything wasnt good at all, i had an emotional breakdown, i just wanted to be gone disappear out of people lives by ending mines. But umm friday (yesterday) it worsen, my mom and step father was getting on my head bout some damn key that i lost and i was stressed out cause i had 4 tests that day and i just walked out the house crying, sad on the bus listening to my music people asking if im ok and shit (Started to get annoying) then i went to cafe aroma to meet ashton and he was all concerned and i finally just kinda broke down crying at the gas station so we were walking to school and i was whatever then around mm... 4th period in geometry class i started feeling better cause something came randomly, so me and ashton is at the school library happy and stuff so my day started to look better, then my tests weren't that hard except SPANISH! that dum shit smh i so cheated lol, so by this time (12:30 or so) im pretty straight, not crying and im some sort laughing and im just like damn if i don't find this damn key my parents are gonna be mad and i don't feel like hearing there shit so i went to the dean office and asked if someone turned in a key and with a leather holder and she said yea! so me and ashton are happy and some sort suprised and then she was like i might have thrown it out... so in my head im like wtf, you threw out somebody key like wtf .... it was sus to me, so im like excited and lowkey mad so anyways 15 minutes in the office was some sort a waste of time, and me and ashton went to uhh tomato pie got a slice of pizza and went to his dad car, he was kinda mad cause i didn't call him and tell him we were at the dean and stuff (that was my bad) so the he dropped me off and Ronald was sleep (my step dad) so im lowkey tryna tip toe to my room so he won't wake up and i was like thats dumb cause he lives with us so its pointless, soooo pretty much i said i couldn't find the key and gave me a lecture and that was that (Wasn't as bad as i thought it was gonna be) then my grandfather wanted me to come up to his home which i did and he was like so guess where were going tonight and i was like where and he was like to go see your favorite pianist and i was like noooo AHMAD JAMAL! and he was like yea so i got suppa excited and went downstairs charged my camera and got dress met him in person! omg my face was red lol i was able to feel the blood in my cheeks lol it was amazing he is amazing man. and yea that was my day (yesterday)

!!!AHHHHH!!!!

OMFG! Q-TIP ALBUM CAME OUT TODAY AND I DON'T HAVE IT!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!! SHOOT ME!

GRRRR!

sigh can someone send me this song if they have it.
i forgot all about it , i use to listen to it all the time last year then idk what happened. lol .

bummer man.

sooooo i have this acid shit in my stomach and it might get super serious and eat my stomach lining .... then my kidney etc etc..... and i don't know how to prevent it.

McDonalds NEEDS TO DIE!

McDonalds!!!! in New York.
wow, McDonalds is FUCKING GROSS! like what the Fucking Fuck
shit taste nasty GESH.

mystery art/postings

i fount another one!
does anyone know who post them up!, i wanna help.
but meanwhile, STOP and remember peace should always be in your consciousness and a better sight of life you will seek.

'its' not so perspicuous anymore.

we are disconnecting... each day, each second, each moment we grow further and further apart i am losing my mind, my thoughts, my love is fading loneliness is rapidly becoming transparent, im running away can some one catch me? im dying ... can someone help me? i am a rose with nectar dripping out of my petal can the right bee for my nectar sting me? im changing physically, mentally, continuously and it seems like no one is there with me, their either ahead of me or behind me, but not beside me... i refuse to say no one is out there for me... but as each day, each second, each moment of this time goes by im a zombie; Asha the dead walking human being.

yellow jacket

i want a bee to land on my flower
some day...

But i took this picture in New Jersey there's a lot of bees out there most of my cousins were chicken nuts but obviously i wasn't. I think bees are little insects with a lot of character maybe paranoid a bit.

It seems like the bee life is cool all they have to do is fly around and have sex with flowers! have 2sums at that! like woah what a life right?, but there paranoid when it comes to humans! there the first to attack you and when they do they die! then the word gets around the bee hive that the pimp bee died because of a human and now bees are the first to attack people trying to save themselves then they die, and the word is going to keep going around and in a minute its simply going to be a bee and human war.

woop woop

school started yesterday. lol, more 'important' classes so more learning.
lalala, i have a doctor appointment today so i won't be at school till like 11 something :/ which is a bummer because its the 2nd day of school but whatevea.

MAN!

WHY is N.E.R.D PERFORMING tomorrow in NEW YORK not in L.A ... NEW YORK smh i don't think i'll ever see them perform :/.