yep.

hmmm, life, i guess u can say its becoming more and more ... .. . difficult, cause with joy there is problems, and with problems there's confusion, i've been use to confusion for a while now, so i guess its eating my heart up., but its all good., one day things will be ok and my PERSONAL problems, will one day not exist, but until that day i remain enslaved under confusion, but i do find joy in this lust that im trying to fulfill i call it 'love' truly i don't believe in it anymore lowkey, so im trying to create another title for it., but, chea chea that feeling in certain quick moments or seconds brings joy... and hope into my heart , then it quickly goes away and confusion seeks in me. Sad story? , no i just call it sanity.

CAN'T WAIT.... but i have to.

hm, so obviously i decided not to change my um layout on blogspot.

but anyways, todayyyyyyyy 12-14-09, the only thing i was able to think about all day was the last day of school (Friday), omg, im so excited!, i can stay up late don't got to wake up at 5 no more for a while, PAINT SOME MORE!!!, (HOPEFULLY MY MOM GIVES ME A CANVAS , HA MAYBE ONE OR TWO... OR FIFTEEN) , but yea, i can possibly see some of my amigos and chill and what not., so chea chea., hopefully everything goes as i plan for my winter break.

hm, don't know where to start.

haven't blogged lately.
so here i am, got motivated to blog again by hoe man myles.
ummm... hm, where should i start.
so much has changed since 11-14-09.
i guess ... i will start refreshing by changing my blog layout :D.

"Wisdom is not expressible. Wisdom when a wise man trues to express it, always sounds like foolishness."
-Siddhartha

11-14-09

so yesterday it was my god grandmother's birthday party... it was very very very fun. I met a lot of cool people i met AJ who use to be on BET (who is fine as hell!) and i met the lady from WEEDS that shows on HBO and i met Andre Leon Tally who i pretty much spoke to throughout the whole party. I didn't know that was him until today actually so i looked him up and he's well accomplished. Me and his friend had a good time we were talking about everything and laughing and shit lol. but then it got fucked up right when i was about to go to bed smh. but its all good me guess. thats life, right?

Warmth of the Sun - Beach Boys (they probably stole this song.)

What good is the dawn
That grows into day
The sunset at night
Or living this way

For I have the warmth of the sun
(Warmth of the sun)
Within me at night
(Within me at night)

The love of my life
She left me one day
I cried when she said
"I don't feel the same way"

Still I have the warmth of the sun
(Warmth of the sun)
Within me tonight
(Within me tonight)

I'll dream of her arms
And though they're not real
It's like she's still there
The way that I feel

My love's like the warmth of the sun
(Warmth of the sun)
It won't ever die
(It won't ever die)

beautiful lyrics.:)

numb=safe

i feel nothing anymore.

and its me.

and its spoken.

There's no future only present.
Love is just a fairy tale that children wish upon on.
People are representatives of ignorance, blind and deaf.
Nature and Animals are our best friends that we take for granted.

Fucking Fuck

... i cannot find this song that i like so much!.

,,,horny vampires.
lmao OHKAY

no tittle.

im reaching and reaching and reaching, reaching, reaching, reaching, reaching, reaching and reaching and no one is grabbing my hand so am i insane am i really a man
but i checked down below and seen nothing hanging low
except my heart that people step on
so imma continue riding on my copper bike dedicating my life to drive bys with acid water that squirts out my water gun

... and im done lol.. im distracted with this movie called 'Trick or Treat'.

Asha vs. Karren in thumb war . . . during Spanish class

on the plane going to New York

oh and in have that mask on to protect me from just ERVERY THANG lol.
and i cut my hair. i don't know if u can notice... but chea, its not a big deal.. people who knew the length of my hair would notice but not others.

tired.

Airport tomorrow at 12.
got my shit pack.. probably gonna leave something i need behind though. (That always happen)

different eyes, in 3 steps

1.

2.

3.


same pic, different interpretation

interesting

,mm, i never missed someone like this for a loonnng time., don't know if thats a good thing or bad thing, but w.e.
i guess it really takes someone to step out of your book (life) for a day or months or years , decades, w.e for you to really realize how much that person means to you.
i mean like if your whole day is just OFF because you haven't talked to your 'person' then i would think it means that..,
u really care...
"love" that person.

\and im ouuuttt

p.s.,
im raw, like organic trail mixes at whole foods... bitch.

p.s.(x2),
and im upside down..... peace

people,really?

omg man.... and they ask me why the FUCK i don't eat meat. i meant thats fucking ridiculous! OMG!!!!!those fuckers!, how dare they treat those calves like that THE FUCK!, if i see them EVER walking down the street its going to be a automatic beat DOWN. Just because we are 'higher' organisms to all the other ones out in OUR fucking world, we shouldn't just treat them like SHIT cause we can. There like our ancestors if you really think about it.

&&&& FUCK MONSANTO, there all a bunch of LIES, bullying the real farmers who are trying to do shit right. and FUCK FARM FACTORIES, like who would wanna serve almost everyone false food?whats the purpose? money?, smh..i have nothing else to say.

horrible saturday night!.

blah la ta da, its freaking saturday night and im bored as all hell!, there isn't nothing on tv (idiot box) and ... my bestfriend is on punishment (don't know how that randomly happened) so i don't really have anyone to chat with... like i do but ., its to late to call and i don't feel like aiming ppl and ish. SOOOO .... i guess im assed out in some sort..fyi i think its time for a powerful, everlasting revolution cause i was like thinking last night around 3 a.m on just w.e really popped up in my head and i came to a conclusion that everything is all FUCKED UP. <-(Period)