i stepped out the box and used a ladder to climb to the sun door
when i did so i stayed there and started building my home
my friends were disappointed when they noticed i wasn't coming back to the soil i once rested on
as seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, years went by
i started to find myself and i started to express my epistemology on life
my friends that later became my foes didn't wanna hear it
they bitch and complained on how they want the old Asha back
the girl that did what we said and never spoke up for her self nor her feelings
but now i've changed
and with there reactions to the way i am questions popped in my head like
wouldn't they support the new me as they did the old me?
i stayed confused on my friends that i thought was everlasting but shortly became transient
i became lonely.
didn't know where to go , who to talk to..
it was just me and my mind
so i started to advance more and became untouchable, strong, wise, intelligent for a 15 year old
but i still didn't have no one to share my thoughts with
as i tried to with my mom she didn't listen but she heard me and said i am just 15 so i don't know what im talking about neither does she
but then he came into my life and turned everything positively upside down.
now im not lonely i am still breathing because of his heart
but
as seconds, minutes, hours, months, years go by and he's gone out my life
will i still stick around for nothing or will i instantly take my life to maintain my sanity