IM DONE

Im tired of never having any time to do what I would desire to do. I never have the freedom to achieve small goals I would like to achieve. I wish I can do things by myself, without anyone forcing me to do something they want me to do. This summer I have to go to this upper bond crap for 6 weeks from 7-3. I understand why I have to go which is only because of my math and Im only going to be working on my math from 8-12:30 but the rest is extra shit like visiting colleges and theater. This program help out kids who want to go to whatever university they dream about going. I DO NOT WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE! its not in my BEST interest. The only reason why Im striving to go is simply because I know that's lowkey the only way to become VERY successful. But my thing is this program help teaches u about the college life and u simply visit the college and talk about what they have to do and shit. I ALREADY BEEN TO COLLEGES! I've been to colleges outside of fucking California I researched everything that's essential for me know when I get there. So why the fuck am I wasting most of my time here. I can go to Fairfax Summer school from 8-12:30 and just work on what I need to work on which is MATH. So pretty much all of the plans and goals I HAD for myself is not even in the picture no more man. this shit sucks! I can never do shit on my own. I always have to do something someone else wants me to do.