GOT A NEW CAMERA!!!!, here's a few pictures I've taken so far. Of course I have other pictures besides nature but... I wanted to post these up (obviously).
8/3/09
woop woop
GOT A NEW CAMERA!!!!, here's a few pictures I've taken so far. Of course I have other pictures besides nature but... I wanted to post these up (obviously).
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above me is Venus & Serena Williams (The Tennis Players) in 1997.
smh... really Common. Serena? Could have done waayy better. Glad she's OLD HISTORY!
8/2/09
New Chapter.
I went from a ovule to a receptacle holding my beauty in whole
creating thorns to protect that one bee from hurting me,but though the grass covered my roots you still seen right through me u skipped my marigold petals and went straight down to my heart, u then forced your love in me weighing me down so heavy but i still seen the beauty you carried so perspicuously it blew my mind straight down on the concrete. I let you go..... and surprisingly I'm still standing, though i gave up on love i still see peace.... ..peace in myself.. I finally have a peace of mind. something I've been striving desperately to find in my past life.
7/29/09
interesting.
Sin is a word that has been greatly misunderstood and misinterpreted. Literally translated from the ancient Greek in which the New Testament was written, to sin means to miss the mark, and an archer who misses the target, so to sin means to miss the point human existence. It means to live unskillfully,blindly,and thus to suffer and cause suffering.
7/26/09
7/25/09
7/24/09
7/13/09
Open Mic Anyone?
does anyone know like a open mic show or what not where i can spit (recite my poetry) at a cool time in the day (7 p.m)
7/7/09
7/6/09
I DONT KNOW - J Dilla
hahaha i like this song. beat is on point and the vibe i get from this song is playful.
this love thing
sigh...
i fucked up. badly
i feel horrible on the inside.
im a sane monster
but still trying to love
i try to express myself but end up fucking up people mentally with my confusion
i will ask for help but i don't think no one can help me
so i write poetry so someone can try to understand me
I'm blind when it comes to true love thats my weakness
im a witness when it comes to tears i caused which i try to fix and end up caring to much
karma is hunting me i can feel it in my gut
my elders says that love will block me from my true meaning in life
so i curve ball my love so i can protect me the most
selfish yea i know
but throughout my whole life i'll only have myself
there's no second guessing about that
so i would rather be safe then sorry in the end
idk maybe this love thing is just a fake feeling.
i fucked up. badly
i feel horrible on the inside.
im a sane monster
but still trying to love
i try to express myself but end up fucking up people mentally with my confusion
i will ask for help but i don't think no one can help me
so i write poetry so someone can try to understand me
I'm blind when it comes to true love thats my weakness
im a witness when it comes to tears i caused which i try to fix and end up caring to much
karma is hunting me i can feel it in my gut
my elders says that love will block me from my true meaning in life
so i curve ball my love so i can protect me the most
selfish yea i know
but throughout my whole life i'll only have myself
there's no second guessing about that
so i would rather be safe then sorry in the end
idk maybe this love thing is just a fake feeling.
7/4/09
7/3/9
My piano teacher Larry Nash is amazing. I went to one of his shows yesterday at LACMA (Los Angeles County Museum of Art)and he blew the whole thing out! there were at least 100 to 200 people and it was just fantastic. He played so many famous jazz songs and a few he composed. His daughter is also a wonderful singer and has a good personality. And also my grandfather he sung Round Midnight in front of a whole crowd without no rehearsal and he did fantastic! I'm not saying this because of he's my grandfather he truly did a good job. Though my grandfather got a parking ticket and I was freezing to the point where my fingers turned blue the vibe was great and it was all worth it.
7/2/09
6/30/09
black and white pages is what I left behind now as I turn to this new chapter i now see color so divine. But will this color fade out soon? Will I be more lonely then I was last night? I cry silently looking for a way out of the love madness im confused in.. I gaze on our memories we once shared but now as I analyze what we had I question the "love" that was there
- Me
A few pictures I've taken
Perspicuous Beauty. Will always be divine in my visual mind. Different colors that all mean different things but contrast with each other quietly telling a simple but complex story depending on how you see it.
6/22/09
MY MAN Patrice Lumumba
I am very very very proud to be working with Guy-Patrice Lumumba (Patrice Lumumba youngest son) campaign this summer! he's following his father's footsteps and is trying to become voted to be Congo President.
check this shit out! POLITICAL ASSASSINATION!
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=5027192261852823192
6/21/09
6/18/09
woow. so today was the last day of 9th grade! i am now a 10th grader. hahaha high school was very interesting, there was more people, dumb ass teachers, and more fights compared to the middle school i went to. I remember when i was all nerves on my first day shake my hoe now im excited that this shit is over for a few months. It was a cool experience ive matured and realized that school can be very reliable if u make it reliable.
6/17/09
6/16/09
IM DONE
Im tired of never having any time to do what I would desire to do. I never have the freedom to achieve small goals I would like to achieve. I wish I can do things by myself, without anyone forcing me to do something they want me to do. This summer I have to go to this upper bond crap for 6 weeks from 7-3. I understand why I have to go which is only because of my math and Im only going to be working on my math from 8-12:30 but the rest is extra shit like visiting colleges and theater. This program help out kids who want to go to whatever university they dream about going. I DO NOT WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE! its not in my BEST interest. The only reason why Im striving to go is simply because I know that's lowkey the only way to become VERY successful. But my thing is this program help teaches u about the college life and u simply visit the college and talk about what they have to do and shit. I ALREADY BEEN TO COLLEGES! I've been to colleges outside of fucking California I researched everything that's essential for me know when I get there. So why the fuck am I wasting most of my time here. I can go to Fairfax Summer school from 8-12:30 and just work on what I need to work on which is MATH. So pretty much all of the plans and goals I HAD for myself is not even in the picture no more man. this shit sucks! I can never do shit on my own. I always have to do something someone else wants me to do.
6/15/09
i stepped out the box and used a ladder to climb to the sun door
when i did so i stayed there and started building my home
my friends were disappointed when they noticed i wasn't coming back to the soil i once rested on
as seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, years went by
i started to find myself and i started to express my epistemology on life
my friends that later became my foes didn't wanna hear it
they bitch and complained on how they want the old Asha back
the girl that did what we said and never spoke up for her self nor her feelings
but now i've changed
and with there reactions to the way i am questions popped in my head like
wouldn't they support the new me as they did the old me?
i stayed confused on my friends that i thought was everlasting but shortly became transient
i became lonely.
didn't know where to go , who to talk to..
it was just me and my mind
so i started to advance more and became untouchable, strong, wise, intelligent for a 15 year old
but i still didn't have no one to share my thoughts with
as i tried to with my mom she didn't listen but she heard me and said i am just 15 so i don't know what im talking about neither does she
but then he came into my life and turned everything positively upside down.
now im not lonely i am still breathing because of his heart
but
as seconds, minutes, hours, months, years go by and he's gone out my life
will i still stick around for nothing or will i instantly take my life to maintain my sanity
when i did so i stayed there and started building my home
my friends were disappointed when they noticed i wasn't coming back to the soil i once rested on
as seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, years went by
i started to find myself and i started to express my epistemology on life
my friends that later became my foes didn't wanna hear it
they bitch and complained on how they want the old Asha back
the girl that did what we said and never spoke up for her self nor her feelings
but now i've changed
and with there reactions to the way i am questions popped in my head like
wouldn't they support the new me as they did the old me?
i stayed confused on my friends that i thought was everlasting but shortly became transient
i became lonely.
didn't know where to go , who to talk to..
it was just me and my mind
so i started to advance more and became untouchable, strong, wise, intelligent for a 15 year old
but i still didn't have no one to share my thoughts with
as i tried to with my mom she didn't listen but she heard me and said i am just 15 so i don't know what im talking about neither does she
but then he came into my life and turned everything positively upside down.
now im not lonely i am still breathing because of his heart
but
as seconds, minutes, hours, months, years go by and he's gone out my life
will i still stick around for nothing or will i instantly take my life to maintain my sanity
6/14/09
My Summer Plans
this summer thiiis summmeeeerrr :D
i have multiple plans!
the first thing imma do is YOGA!
then imma focus on my music some more become more "exposed" to the world as my mom says
then write some plays,stories,scripts etc. for my 10th grade year
TRY TO FIND A JOB!
do some community work for fun
read to the blind
learn sign language
participate in some leadership ish
and hang out with my friends
i have multiple plans!
the first thing imma do is YOGA!
then imma focus on my music some more become more "exposed" to the world as my mom says
then write some plays,stories,scripts etc. for my 10th grade year
TRY TO FIND A JOB!
do some community work for fun
read to the blind
learn sign language
participate in some leadership ish
and hang out with my friends
FAVORITE PART in Next Friday
lmao my FAVORTIE PART IN THE WHOLE MOVIE go to 5:20 (listen to what he says and look at all that spit that comes out his mouth) LMFAO!
6/13/09
the beautiful Ruby-Throat Hummingbird
"the Ruby-Throat Hummingbird is actually the sun in disguise, and he is trying to court a beautiful woman, who is the moon."
- A Mayan legend
6/8/09
a thought about jerk.
.. wassup with this jerk shit man.
its really irritating and of course im on the phone with ashton all the time so im always hearing jerk songs or him talking about someone else jerking or seeing him over web cam jerking...... WHY!
jerking is truly a MOVEMENT a dumb movement though! like what the hell. and then the Jerk music to go with the jerk dance is nasty af like what the fuck "im the pussy monster" bitch who gives a flying fuck i bet his ass is a virgin, thennn there pretty much promoting smoking (weed) and popping (ecstasy) and the main people that jerk are black people and there listening to jerk music and some of them think its cool to do all that shit. shake my head . when is it going to end?
its really irritating and of course im on the phone with ashton all the time so im always hearing jerk songs or him talking about someone else jerking or seeing him over web cam jerking...... WHY!
jerking is truly a MOVEMENT a dumb movement though! like what the hell. and then the Jerk music to go with the jerk dance is nasty af like what the fuck "im the pussy monster" bitch who gives a flying fuck i bet his ass is a virgin, thennn there pretty much promoting smoking (weed) and popping (ecstasy) and the main people that jerk are black people and there listening to jerk music and some of them think its cool to do all that shit. shake my head . when is it going to end?
Gerald Felix Tchicaya U Tam'si
Forest
Where are the flowers that smell
of the warm flesh under the armpits?
In paradise on the victim's burial mound
Those that as a child I lapped
closed my burning eyes
the sun itself on my cropped head
through it was all red lead
ah! I still danced though I had no woman
hilarious toads and astounding pythons
as if my dead returned through them
The Belly
Slobber within the masks will serve better for this carnival
than grinning on a thousand different notes
But since I have only one face
Over that alone shall I pass my hand.
The flat horizon of this country splits my heart
If I recoil everything bristles suddenly!
I will stay at the gate with the wind in my side
but with tornadoes in my belly
Where are the flowers that smell
of the warm flesh under the armpits?
In paradise on the victim's burial mound
Those that as a child I lapped
closed my burning eyes
the sun itself on my cropped head
through it was all red lead
ah! I still danced though I had no woman
hilarious toads and astounding pythons
as if my dead returned through them
The Belly
Slobber within the masks will serve better for this carnival
than grinning on a thousand different notes
But since I have only one face
Over that alone shall I pass my hand.
The flat horizon of this country splits my heart
If I recoil everything bristles suddenly!
I will stay at the gate with the wind in my side
but with tornadoes in my belly
THANKKKSSS ASHTON :D
Since Ashton gave me Mos Def cd early ( THANK YOOUU, really appreciate it ) I was able to enjoy his music especially ROSES by Mos Def and Georgia Anne Muldrow that's me and Ashton favorite song on his album. But his album is GREAT.BUY IT WHEN IT COMES OUT!
6/7/09
weird dream.
had a crazy dreeammm!. it was about how the earth was ending and everything was getting sucked in a hole and I was on the phone with ashton crying saying I want to see him again and stuff like that, then the phone went dead, I didn't know where my parents were and my house was getting sucked in the hole rapidly so I decided to stay in my house and I stopped crying and just dealt with the fact that it just might be time for me to die. So after a while I got sucked in this DEEP hole i decided to get out my house and see the damage, of course it was a lot of damage but i was trying to find a stick or something for me to climb back to the surface which I did and when I came back to the surface there was a group of unknown people who pushed me back down but ashton caught me and pulled me back up.
6/6/09
An Ancient Gesture & Spring are my favorite poems (so far) by Edna St. Vincent Millay
An Ancient Gesture
I thought, as I wiped my eyes on the corner of my apron:
Penelope did this too.
And more than once: you can't keep weaving all day
And undoing it all through the night;
Your arms get tired, and the back of your neck gets tight;
And along towards morning, when you think it will never be light,
And your husband has been gone, and you don't know where, for years.
Suddenly you burst into tears;
There is simply nothing else to do.
And I thought, as I wiped my eyes on the corner of my apron:
This is an ancient gesture, authentic, antique,
In the very best tradition, classic, Greek;
Ulysses did this too.
But only as a gesture,—a gesture which implied
To the assembled throng that he was much too moved to speak.
He learned it from Penelope...
Penelope, who really cried.
Spring
To what purpose, April, do you return again?
Beauty is not enough.
You can no longer quiet me with the redness
Of little leaves opening stickily.
I know what I know.
The sun is hot on my neck as I observe
The spikes of the crocus.
The smell of the earth is good.
It is apparent that there is no death.
But what does that signify?
Not only under ground are the brains of men
Eaten by maggots,
Life in itself
Is nothing,
An empty cup, a flight of uncarpeted stairs.
It is not enough that yearly, down this hill,
April
Comes like an idiot, babbling and strewing flowers.
I thought, as I wiped my eyes on the corner of my apron:
Penelope did this too.
And more than once: you can't keep weaving all day
And undoing it all through the night;
Your arms get tired, and the back of your neck gets tight;
And along towards morning, when you think it will never be light,
And your husband has been gone, and you don't know where, for years.
Suddenly you burst into tears;
There is simply nothing else to do.
And I thought, as I wiped my eyes on the corner of my apron:
This is an ancient gesture, authentic, antique,
In the very best tradition, classic, Greek;
Ulysses did this too.
But only as a gesture,—a gesture which implied
To the assembled throng that he was much too moved to speak.
He learned it from Penelope...
Penelope, who really cried.
Spring
To what purpose, April, do you return again?
Beauty is not enough.
You can no longer quiet me with the redness
Of little leaves opening stickily.
I know what I know.
The sun is hot on my neck as I observe
The spikes of the crocus.
The smell of the earth is good.
It is apparent that there is no death.
But what does that signify?
Not only under ground are the brains of men
Eaten by maggots,
Life in itself
Is nothing,
An empty cup, a flight of uncarpeted stairs.
It is not enough that yearly, down this hill,
April
Comes like an idiot, babbling and strewing flowers.
6/3/09
Mos Def new cd " The Ecstatic"
yooo i can't wait till this brotha cd come out!! :D im not that ecstatic about it as much as others... lol, but i am excited about it. my homeboy myles sent me the play list and some dope peeps are featured on it :D oooh yeeeeaaaa
6/2/09
broke down
sooo to day i fully expressed myself and pretty much broke down to my heart.
.. thats all i gotta say
.. thats all i gotta say
5/31/09
new syle
im changing my styllleeee .
i am now going to be very creative with what i wear starting this summer imm going to start shopping at more vintage stores and wear very unique things also cutting and tearing some of my old clothes and creating new styles that kinda match my personality or mood im in (: soooo yay im excited.
i am now going to be very creative with what i wear starting this summer imm going to start shopping at more vintage stores and wear very unique things also cutting and tearing some of my old clothes and creating new styles that kinda match my personality or mood im in (: soooo yay im excited.
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