6/18/09
woow. so today was the last day of 9th grade! i am now a 10th grader. hahaha high school was very interesting, there was more people, dumb ass teachers, and more fights compared to the middle school i went to. I remember when i was all nerves on my first day shake my hoe now im excited that this shit is over for a few months. It was a cool experience ive matured and realized that school can be very reliable if u make it reliable.
6/17/09
6/16/09
IM DONE
Im tired of never having any time to do what I would desire to do. I never have the freedom to achieve small goals I would like to achieve. I wish I can do things by myself, without anyone forcing me to do something they want me to do. This summer I have to go to this upper bond crap for 6 weeks from 7-3. I understand why I have to go which is only because of my math and Im only going to be working on my math from 8-12:30 but the rest is extra shit like visiting colleges and theater. This program help out kids who want to go to whatever university they dream about going. I DO NOT WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE! its not in my BEST interest. The only reason why Im striving to go is simply because I know that's lowkey the only way to become VERY successful. But my thing is this program help teaches u about the college life and u simply visit the college and talk about what they have to do and shit. I ALREADY BEEN TO COLLEGES! I've been to colleges outside of fucking California I researched everything that's essential for me know when I get there. So why the fuck am I wasting most of my time here. I can go to Fairfax Summer school from 8-12:30 and just work on what I need to work on which is MATH. So pretty much all of the plans and goals I HAD for myself is not even in the picture no more man. this shit sucks! I can never do shit on my own. I always have to do something someone else wants me to do.
6/15/09
i stepped out the box and used a ladder to climb to the sun door
when i did so i stayed there and started building my home
my friends were disappointed when they noticed i wasn't coming back to the soil i once rested on
as seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, years went by
i started to find myself and i started to express my epistemology on life
my friends that later became my foes didn't wanna hear it
they bitch and complained on how they want the old Asha back
the girl that did what we said and never spoke up for her self nor her feelings
but now i've changed
and with there reactions to the way i am questions popped in my head like
wouldn't they support the new me as they did the old me?
i stayed confused on my friends that i thought was everlasting but shortly became transient
i became lonely.
didn't know where to go , who to talk to..
it was just me and my mind
so i started to advance more and became untouchable, strong, wise, intelligent for a 15 year old
but i still didn't have no one to share my thoughts with
as i tried to with my mom she didn't listen but she heard me and said i am just 15 so i don't know what im talking about neither does she
but then he came into my life and turned everything positively upside down.
now im not lonely i am still breathing because of his heart
but
as seconds, minutes, hours, months, years go by and he's gone out my life
will i still stick around for nothing or will i instantly take my life to maintain my sanity
when i did so i stayed there and started building my home
my friends were disappointed when they noticed i wasn't coming back to the soil i once rested on
as seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, years went by
i started to find myself and i started to express my epistemology on life
my friends that later became my foes didn't wanna hear it
they bitch and complained on how they want the old Asha back
the girl that did what we said and never spoke up for her self nor her feelings
but now i've changed
and with there reactions to the way i am questions popped in my head like
wouldn't they support the new me as they did the old me?
i stayed confused on my friends that i thought was everlasting but shortly became transient
i became lonely.
didn't know where to go , who to talk to..
it was just me and my mind
so i started to advance more and became untouchable, strong, wise, intelligent for a 15 year old
but i still didn't have no one to share my thoughts with
as i tried to with my mom she didn't listen but she heard me and said i am just 15 so i don't know what im talking about neither does she
but then he came into my life and turned everything positively upside down.
now im not lonely i am still breathing because of his heart
but
as seconds, minutes, hours, months, years go by and he's gone out my life
will i still stick around for nothing or will i instantly take my life to maintain my sanity
6/14/09
My Summer Plans
this summer thiiis summmeeeerrr :D
i have multiple plans!
the first thing imma do is YOGA!
then imma focus on my music some more become more "exposed" to the world as my mom says
then write some plays,stories,scripts etc. for my 10th grade year
TRY TO FIND A JOB!
do some community work for fun
read to the blind
learn sign language
participate in some leadership ish
and hang out with my friends
i have multiple plans!
the first thing imma do is YOGA!
then imma focus on my music some more become more "exposed" to the world as my mom says
then write some plays,stories,scripts etc. for my 10th grade year
TRY TO FIND A JOB!
do some community work for fun
read to the blind
learn sign language
participate in some leadership ish
and hang out with my friends
FAVORITE PART in Next Friday
lmao my FAVORTIE PART IN THE WHOLE MOVIE go to 5:20 (listen to what he says and look at all that spit that comes out his mouth) LMFAO!
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