yep.

hmmm, life, i guess u can say its becoming more and more ... .. . difficult, cause with joy there is problems, and with problems there's confusion, i've been use to confusion for a while now, so i guess its eating my heart up., but its all good., one day things will be ok and my PERSONAL problems, will one day not exist, but until that day i remain enslaved under confusion, but i do find joy in this lust that im trying to fulfill i call it 'love' truly i don't believe in it anymore lowkey, so im trying to create another title for it., but, chea chea that feeling in certain quick moments or seconds brings joy... and hope into my heart , then it quickly goes away and confusion seeks in me. Sad story? , no i just call it sanity.

CAN'T WAIT.... but i have to.

hm, so obviously i decided not to change my um layout on blogspot.

but anyways, todayyyyyyyy 12-14-09, the only thing i was able to think about all day was the last day of school (Friday), omg, im so excited!, i can stay up late don't got to wake up at 5 no more for a while, PAINT SOME MORE!!!, (HOPEFULLY MY MOM GIVES ME A CANVAS , HA MAYBE ONE OR TWO... OR FIFTEEN) , but yea, i can possibly see some of my amigos and chill and what not., so chea chea., hopefully everything goes as i plan for my winter break.

hm, don't know where to start.

haven't blogged lately.
so here i am, got motivated to blog again by hoe man myles.
ummm... hm, where should i start.
so much has changed since 11-14-09.
i guess ... i will start refreshing by changing my blog layout :D.